Lessons won't always come in whole pieces. Sometimes, it takes reliving a similar experience. Sometimes, it's going to take the same people over and over. So don't be hard on yourself. What you learn comes to be in pieces of who you learn to be for yourself. So allow forgiveness to be a remedy. Allow the apologies. Accept the pieces you need to accept for now. It does not always have to be whole, yet. It does not always have to be perfect. What you learn, you learn either as if it were an old friend or the stranger you needed.