behind closed doors

i disappear

if sleep came knocking

he would not find me here

this aching abyss

is no place for dreams

only pieces

of broken bones and memories

i struggle to reside

in a place where thoughts collide

struggle and yearning

reveling in the past

in what we were ages before

when we thought we knew it all

when all we knew was nothing

endless torture battling with a need

to relive everything

i draw a line in the sand

take shelter in the silence

they said the heart cannot miss

what it does not remember

so in an act of defiance

far overdue

i shattered the parts

that were stained by you.